Inner Peace
Inner Peace (5/10/2006 8:59:58 PM)
So since my not so nice weekend when things didn't really go as they were planned and my ex husband came to cheer me up, I have been making some major changes in my life.... Oh maybe I should have told you to sit down first before I shocked you with that bit of info. The past 2 weeks now I have been packing up my house, bit by bit, getting ready to vacate the premises for the disposal of my home. Oh, wait, it's more like this I have been spending major time with my daughter, which has been very nice. We've been cooking together, eating together and then heading to the local park for a walk. It's been wonderful getting out and getting exercise and having time to talk without the phone or the TV. And.... to be honest other people that I know. I know that sounds mean but the past 2 weeks I have only gone out with friends 3 times. Maybe that seems like a lot but when it used to be 5 or 6 times a week, 3 times in 2 weeks seems like nothing. I realized tonight when we were on our walk it's been very nice not having anyone around.... Girlfriends or guy friends... I haven't lost site of my packing schedule. I haven't lost site of my goal of spending time with my daughter. And I haven't lost site of my goal of walking every night (at least weeknight). If I went back to spending all that time with my friends then none of these things would be happening in my life. I know that I have hurt one of my friends’ feelings because I haven't wanted to hang out with him. But to be honest I think it's time for me to get back to worrying about my daughter and me and take care of my life and to not put so much emphasis on my social life. Let's face it when you worry about that sort of thing it gets ya no where fast. Not that I have really been worrying about it because I decided a long time ago to not stress about it. I find that I am much happier being single. When I say that people look at me like I am crazy. But it's true. I haven't met a man yet that can understand me! Lol Besides after being alone for any length of time a person gets used to doing things the way they want to, when they want to and not having to think about the other person's feelings or wants. It's all about ME ME ME!!!! (Well my daughter too but you understand what I mean) In the last few months I have met a few men from this site and most of them say the same thing.... They want a woman to move in with them ... some of them seem to be looking for a maid with the sex anytime they want thing... sorry Charlie I am buying my own house and I am staying put for a very long time.... And nope not inviting you to move in with me. WHY? Because I like it like that. It’s MINE MINE MINE! I think that once you get to the inner peace point of your life you no longer feel you have to keep up with everyone else and have the significant other to prove something. If you are truly happy with yourself you have the best gift anyone could give you anyway. So why mess it up?
So since my not so nice weekend when things didn't really go as they were planned and my ex husband came to cheer me up, I have been making some major changes in my life.... Oh maybe I should have told you to sit down first before I shocked you with that bit of info. The past 2 weeks now I have been packing up my house, bit by bit, getting ready to vacate the premises for the disposal of my home. Oh, wait, it's more like this I have been spending major time with my daughter, which has been very nice. We've been cooking together, eating together and then heading to the local park for a walk. It's been wonderful getting out and getting exercise and having time to talk without the phone or the TV. And.... to be honest other people that I know. I know that sounds mean but the past 2 weeks I have only gone out with friends 3 times. Maybe that seems like a lot but when it used to be 5 or 6 times a week, 3 times in 2 weeks seems like nothing. I realized tonight when we were on our walk it's been very nice not having anyone around.... Girlfriends or guy friends... I haven't lost site of my packing schedule. I haven't lost site of my goal of spending time with my daughter. And I haven't lost site of my goal of walking every night (at least weeknight). If I went back to spending all that time with my friends then none of these things would be happening in my life. I know that I have hurt one of my friends’ feelings because I haven't wanted to hang out with him. But to be honest I think it's time for me to get back to worrying about my daughter and me and take care of my life and to not put so much emphasis on my social life. Let's face it when you worry about that sort of thing it gets ya no where fast. Not that I have really been worrying about it because I decided a long time ago to not stress about it. I find that I am much happier being single. When I say that people look at me like I am crazy. But it's true. I haven't met a man yet that can understand me! Lol Besides after being alone for any length of time a person gets used to doing things the way they want to, when they want to and not having to think about the other person's feelings or wants. It's all about ME ME ME!!!! (Well my daughter too but you understand what I mean) In the last few months I have met a few men from this site and most of them say the same thing.... They want a woman to move in with them ... some of them seem to be looking for a maid with the sex anytime they want thing... sorry Charlie I am buying my own house and I am staying put for a very long time.... And nope not inviting you to move in with me. WHY? Because I like it like that. It’s MINE MINE MINE! I think that once you get to the inner peace point of your life you no longer feel you have to keep up with everyone else and have the significant other to prove something. If you are truly happy with yourself you have the best gift anyone could give you anyway. So why mess it up?
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