Blog from MD

I really haven’t been writing a great deal in my blog lately. Oh, I’ve posted some jokes and some inspirational things but I haven’t really been writing about me personally.

Today, however, I am ready to spill what has been on my mind.

The other day I posted a blog about how someone from my past is back and wants to try to make things work again and I am really torn by this. Well not really torn just know I have to think things through before I leap back into something with this person that hurt me.

I don’t think that he hurt me intentionally but none the less he did hurt me. But as a Christian I was raised to forgive and forget so that I can reap my blessings. So I forgave and I have forgotten a great deal of the things that were said.

Some of my wonderful friends have said if I have to think about things then it’s not a good idea. But I do not do anything without thinking it through so that isn’t necessarily my case.

I even asked my ex-husband’s advice about this situation. Only because, well he’s my friend and he’s been there, done it and regrets it. He suggested I run as fast as I can in the other direction and never speak to this person again to save my heart.

I can understand why people are skeptics, especially if you have been married, or have been in a long term relationship and have gotten hurt it makes you want to just never give your heart out again.

But what is the point of living if you don’t keep trying to find your true love?

If we get hurt once and never try we’d be very lonely people …. Wouldn’t we?

If I try this again and is still doesn’t work, then I will know for certain that it’s not meant to be and I can move on with my life knowing that I gave it my all and it’s the best I could do.

What if I try it and it works?? Now there’s a thought huh? Isn’t that what we want in life? To find the one person we connect with in every way and have a life with them?

I sometimes wonder what is wrong with me that I forgive so easily and I give people chance after chance after chance to get it together and do it right.

But then I realize there’s nothing wrong with me. It’s the way God made me and it’s something that he does. He forgives me over and over and over and over again. So the least I can do for someone I care very much for is to give him another chance.

And if it doesn’t work well… I will be ok because I am a strong person and I will forgive myself for being “stupid” as some would say for following my heart.